I’m feeling bittersweet, mixed feelings. I don’t know what is stronger: excitement, anxiety, my sense of adventure looking forward to what’s new, or my sadness at what I am leaving behind. It is all very real as I am preparing to start my new life in North Carolina in a few days. There are numerous blessings to count regarding this move. It is a very good thing. Yet I am leaving the safety and security of family and friends, and the vague comfort of the known and familiar. I want it all. I want to embrace what the Universe is providing for me right now, and I want to hold on to what I already have. To a large degree, I know that is not possible.
I can’t be in two places at the same time. I can’t live in the past and in the present.
But there are some things I can do. The easy thing is to hold on to thoughts and memories, but that doesn’t count for much. The better thing is to actively hold on to the connections that are valuable to me.
My resolution is to keep in daily contact with the important people in my life. No excuses. It is too easy now, with texting, email, speed dial, voice mail, planes, trains, and automobiles. In the past, I have not done that. Days and sometimes weeks can go by that I don’t talk to my adult children, or my parents. I know life is busy, but I am taking the “no excuses” idea seriously. In fact, I’m adding to my resolution right now:
My resolution is to keep in daily contact with the important people in my life, no excuses!
It makes me feel better about leaving, knowing that my connections with family and friends can remain fresh and alive. Maybe, just maybe, they can even improve!
I was going to write this anyway, because I wanted to make it more real. But I will thank Jen at Sprite’s Keeper for giving me a deadline. I’ll make this part of her current spin, about resolutions.